Wearing his jumper to bed because I’m a sad pathetic person who needs to grow up.
Oh and I’m childish.
And ‘not normal’.
And crazy.
FANTASY OVER REALITY
Taken.
Recovered.
Ask me stuff.
Recently turned health blog.
I would give anything to rewind. To see him stare through my eyes and into my mind with an expression of passion and desire. I miss that. I miss feeling wanted and feeling like i had a place. I miss those loving stares so much. I’m always thinking what did i do to him to make him stop looking at me like that?
“ I lost all interest in my schoolwork, friends, reading, wandering or daydreaming. I had no idea what was happening to me, and I would wake up in the morning with a profound sense of dread that I was somehow going to have to make it through another entire day. I would sit for hour after hour in the undergraduate library, unable to muster enough energy to go to class. I would stare out the window, stare at my books, rearrange them, shuffled them around, leave them unopened, and think about dropping out of college. When I did go to class it was pointless. Pointless and painful. I understood very little of what was going on, and I felt as though only dying would release from the overwhelming sense of inadequacy and blackness that surrounded me. I felt utterly alone, and watching the animated conversations between my fellow students only made me feel more so.
Kay Refield Jamison, An Unquiet Mind (via dulcetdecember)
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“ You get depressed because you know that you’re not what you should be.
Marilyn Manson (via dulcetdecember)
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Everything collapsed today. I feel like I’m dead. Or numb. Or just going to break down at any moment. But i know I’m good at holding it all in, and letting myself deal with things the only way i know how. But i know what being numb does to you. I know how it drags you down and fucks you up. But I’d rather not feel anything and face the consequences.
